Star magazine obtained a private diary purporting to have been written by Lindsay Lohan, in which is revealed she was “in love” with Brokeback Mountain star Heath Ledger at the time of his death in 2008.
The diary details the depth of Lindsay Lohan’s feelings for Heath Ledger and hints at a romantic relationship between them.
“Today Heath died,” she wrote on January 22.
“I’m in love with him… He was the love of my life.
“He taught me so much, and he was everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I want to hear him laugh and hold me. I crave his touch and care.”
Star magazine writes Lindsay Lohan was even planning to visit Heath Ledger in New York City three days after he passed away, with the actress intent on introducing him to her mother Dina.
Lindsay Lohan is reported to have broken down in tears in the middle of a Los Angeles restaurant when she learned of Heath Ledger’s death.
“When a person dies the world stops. I’m numb,” Lindsay Lohan wrote in the diary.
“There’s an emptiness. And a desire to feel loved.
“A need to be held in the arms of someone who understands. But what do you do when the one who understands is gone?”
The new revelations add weight to rumours that Lindsay Logan and Heath Ledger were once romantically involved.
Indeed, in a 2008 phone conversation obtained by RadarOnline, Dina Lohan told Lindsay’s father Michael that Lindsay “was dating Heath when he died”.
Lindsay Lohan, who has struggled with addictions of her own, was also philosophical in the wake of Heath Ledger’s untimely death at 28-years-old.
“It’s like a game of Jenga, and when one piece slips, it all falls apart,” Lindsay Lohan wrote.
“One pill, one slip and it goes down the slope, crashes and burns and it’s over. Why? I ask myself over and over. Cry is all I can do.”
In an entry dated January 31, Lindsay Lohan wrote: “Heath is a prime example of what this industry can do to someone.
“It craves to see someone fail. It brings enjoyment to us to watch one die. The tragedy and cravings for it can kill. And will.”
Heath Ledger split from his actress girlfriend Michelle Williams around September 2007. They had together a daughter, Matilda Rose, now six-years-old.