In a frank interview with Oprah Winfrey aired yesterday, Kim Kardashian opened up about her short-lived marriage to Kris Humphries.
Kim Kardashian, 31, stressed that she still has a “place in my heart” for Kris Humphries, yet after moving in together it dawned on her that married life was “not for me”.
Speaking to Oprah Winfrey on Oprah’s Next Chapter, Kim Kardashian said: “I was in love, I wanted the life that I always pictured my fairytale life to be.
“I would’ve had an extravagant wedding anyway, to end that relationship was a risk in itself to lose ratings and I had to take the risk to be honest to myself.”
Kim Kardashian, who never mentioned Kris Humphries by name during the chat, claimed they had never spent enough time alone before their 72-day matrimony for her to recognize his negative traits.
The reality star continued: “I think when people first meet, everything is great in the beginning, but I didn’t spend more than a whole week with my ex before we married.
“When we moved in together, I saw how our relationship was… I don’t want to get into the small things, but once we moved in, I knew he was not the one.”
As Oprah Winfrey quizzed her about the pre-wedding nerves, Kim Kardashian said: “I didn’t have an inkling, but everyone around me did. The night before, mum said, <<Do you want out?>> She said, <<You’re not yourself>>.
“But I said no, I got angry, I was thinking, <<How dare you!>>”
Kim Kardashian stressed that Kris Humphries did not do anything specifically wrong and denied that he hit her or lashed out
“He’s a good person,” she said.
“I will always have a place in my heart for him. It just wasn’t for me.”
While Kim Kardashian admitted she was “bored” in the romance, she didn’t attribute it as the reason for leaving.
She said: “You know in your heart. Mum was supportive, so I took that time off afterwards… I would rather have been beaten up in the media than live a life that wasn’t happy.
“I was in such a deep depression I thought I was going to back away from everything. I stayed at home for almost four months and I’m a better person now, as heartbreaking as it was to go through.”
She added: “For anyone I hurt, I’m truly sorry, I don’t wish pain on anyone, but the person I am because of that crazy experience, I wouldn’t change it for the world.
“I loved him, obviously it hurt him, and it hurt me too. It was embarassing, I don’t want to call it a mistake, it was a lesson.”
Kim Kardashian also claimed that her sex tape “introduced her to the world in a negative way”, so she was forced to “work ten times harder to get people to see the real me”.
The reality TV star wed Kris Humphries in a fairytale ceremony last August, but eventually their union broke down within less than three months.
Kim Kardashian is now dating rapper Kanye West, 35, and said one of the things that attracts her to him is the fact he is older than her.
She said: “I always dated five years younger. My whole thing was completely different, and now I just love that I’m with someone that’s a couple years older than me.”